I'll Be Brief.

I have an odd obsession with due dates.
Most people dread them- I know. It makes sense. A due date is foreboding. Threatening, even. To some it is an ever creeping, ever deepening, ever growing force that can take over and possess a person, I get it.
But to me- a due date is freedom.
When I wake up on a due date, as a natural-born and unashamed procrastinator all I can think of is, "WOW. This is the LAST time I will EVER have to think of this in my ENTIRE life. crazy awesome."
Granted, I should add a dose of concern to my celebratory stress-release. Maybe just an ounce of the teeth-grinding, down to the wire, sweatin it out sort of stuff? Just a touch of the gut-wrenching, nail-biting obligatory "ughhh" that comes with a due date....but no. not my style. why ruin a good thing?
And on THAT note- my Civ pro paper was due tonight :) I am DUN.

And you know, as a tangent of/disclaimer to that thought...
It's not that I'm lazy.
I'm not.
Or at least I don't think I am...
It's getting harder and harder to find a balance. I used to think I had a really healthy sort of apathy toward my school work. Then i realized a) there is no such thing as healthy apathy and b) there are far fewer apathetic people in law school then there are in undergrad.

This leads me to another revelation:
Living relatively is not an option. You can get lost in this endless sea of, "Well, i'm not as bad as him, but I'm definitely better off than her..."
This isn't a competition.
I'm here for the ride.
I need to learn discipline but not obsession.
I know my identity.
I know that I am "a stranger with a stranger's indifference"
I know my my value is in Christ.

Yesterday I was reminded by an "old friend" what I live by:

Your money, your singleness, marriage, talent, and time,

they were loaned to you to show the world that Christ is Divine

that's why it's Christ in my rhymes

That's why it's Christ all the time

my whole world is built around him He's the life in my lines.

Thanks Lecrae. Thanks for reminding me of how Christ changed my life, heart, plans, priorites. How He made broken things in my life whole. Joyless things in my life full. Thanks.

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And here's to a wonderful night a with a new bf :)

*insert pic of jess and I having a lovely glass of wine and a sleepover that I am too impatient to wait to load. maybe later :)*